The BOY

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There is always that post on the teenage girl's blog or in a teenage girl's diary about the boy she can't stop thinking about. The boy she admires. Well you are going to hear a whole LOT about this boy from me. I am in complete awe. He is not my regular type. My usual type is a Tyson Beckford or a Paul Walker *drools*. But this guy, it is just his mannerism and his unusual fashion sense which draws me to him even more. I think he has a girlfriend, but I know he does not really like her. The way he talks about her and the way she is, I think he's with her as a matter of convenience as bitter as I may sound haha. I am always ranting to my best friend about him and how I will probably never have him. It's no issue as she is in the absolute same position as me so we both tell each other about our problems and tell each other what to do about it. But this boy he is just amazing. I have hardly even spoken to him, but I just think he is amazing. Today we passed each other about 5 times and every single bloody time I could not stop staring into his eyes. I am actually in awe. I am pretty sure if any one else saw this guy, they would be like "Cleopvtrv?! what the hell are you talking about? he is hardly anything special!" but to me he is. I have been on his twitter too, and when I read some of his tweets I think WE THINK SO ALIKE! WHY ARE WE NOT TOGETHER. But I am not in a rush to get into any relationship with anyone. It seems the ones who are rushing into relationships in my year, (to be honest I wouldn't call it a relationship, it is basically sex) are making the wrong decisions too quickly and before they know it they have their clothes off and are having sex with a guy they have only known for a few months. If I was ever in a relationship with somebody, I would like it to be romantic. I would like us to hold hands, have deep conversations about absolutely anything and laugh with each other, hug each other, kiss each other... Playfight. We don't have to rush into sex. My virginity is precious and I don't want to regret who I lose it to because it is so sacred you can never get it back. No matter how many times you get surgery to sew your hymen back together.I could never just give it to someone who I don't even love. I have never had a boyfriend, and I am terribly awkward when a boy tries to approach me or has asked me out. I just giggle and walk away or simply just walk away. Yes. Pretty pathetic. I think it is because I have been in a girl's school and now that I am in sixth form, the only boy I seriously like IS the only boy in my sixth form hahahaha. But I seriously really like him. Once he asked me if the chair beside me was free and I got butterflies for crying out loud. Ahh, I just want to kiss him! But I keep forgetting, although he may not love her as much as I seem to "love" him, he has a girlfriend, and I could never attempt to break up a relationship because of my selfish wants.


Cleopvtrv

xoxoxoxo

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