(No longer) Teenage (but still a) Dreamer

The older I get, I find that I have more frequent and stronger epiphanies. I also find these epiphanies all have a recurring theme, being that it always has something to do with me getting older and getting closer to what I envisaged myself being and looking like as an adult, when I was younger. I had a vague picture in my mind, but I wasn't sure if I would be able to get there at various phases of life. In retrospect, I am coming to terms with the fact that it has been really tough to get at the stage I am at now, and that I have done a whole lot to get where I'm at now, although, I frequently forget the struggle and hard work it took to get here, because I haven't yet got a job or achieved everything that I sometimes feel I could potentially achieve at 22. Some of these things are extremely materialistic things, like my own place, or my own car, or even driving lessons. But I have beyond a doubt, done a whole LOT. I think that now that I'm sexually active, I am also...

The gaps between each post on here are getting a little bit too big. The good thing about that, however, is that it gives me more space to provide you with updates of my life, considering you're like my public, yet private, diary. I want to begin by talking about the job hunt. Since graduating, I have been spending about 6 months looking for a job and it has been the most tedious thing. Just waiting and waiting and waiting for responses. I can't take much more of it, but I have to endure it. I should be hearing back from one place before Monday, but the response will either be "yes" or "no" so it's tough to put all my eggs in one basket. This feeling of limbo has been really irritating, and I have put on so much weight from just being home and sitting at my laptop. Especially because of the recent weather. It had been snowing for a few days, and before that I used to go on daily runs, but then it was a safety hazard, during and after the snow, so I had t...