(No longer) Teenage (but still a) Dreamer

... Yes I added him, and I feel even more pathetic than ever. Since he accepted my friend request, I had access to so many more of his pictures, and they were all pictures of him with his girlfriend. Kissing her, hugging her, each picture was like a stab wound in my heart. I just feel like a big lump of shit now. Not to mention that I have put on 4 pounds from Christmas dinner. BTW MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE I hope you all enjoyed your Christmases. Anyway. I just feel like a massive piece of shit. It's times like this that I revert myself straight back to the internet, to make me feel a little bit better. However, I spend about 5 hours listening to some old Alicia Keys and Frank Ocean,  thinking about how much I want Daboy but will never have him. His music has such soul, his voice is so beautiful, I just have to close my eyes and imagine a fraction of the perfection that Frank Ocean feels when he hears his own songs. Then the other part of that 5 hours is the time I spend on Tumblr,...

There are so many ways in which people just want to impress by having a certain character or presence online, every day. I have come across so many people who just take pictures on instagram and edit them, and just saying things to get a reaction recently. I always think, this girl is so amazing, this girl is so pretty, this girl is so talented, I want to be like her. But realistically, that is just my shallow mindset, and people probably display their lives in a very different way on websites like twitter and tumblr and instagram and they just want to get a reaction from people. To be honest, maybe they don't just want to run away from their lives, because their lives can be fine, but it gives the view to the people who do want to run away from their lives and be comforted by tumblr and twitter and instagram and feel, oh this girl is gorgeous, let me look through her pictures and I'll try and be like her and look like her. Grow my hair like her. Lose a bit of weight. Life will...