EMOTIONAL ADVENTURE TIME.

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I just watched the newest episode of Adventure Time today called "I Remember You", I have never cried during a cartoon, or even disney film, but this episode had so much hidden meaning I was so emotional. WOW! I recommend you watch it if you're an Adventure Time fan. Anyway, I was thinking about the guy I like in my 6th form today, and I was thinking "Cleo, how can you make him notice you? like NOTICE NOTICE you?" I have no Idea how to, but I was thinking of somehow changing my approach from the "I'll pretend I have no feelings for you and you are nobody to me" to the opportunity of perhaps starting a conversation with him perhaps if I could perhaps build up the guts of even looking at him!!! AH CLEO CLEO CLEO. I just really like this guy. His girlfriend came into the socialising room on Friday, and he wouldn't even talk to her. She seemed to be the one who would be forcing the kisses and sitting on his lap, trying to wrap his arms around her, calling him "Booboo" which I bloody hated because I hate when girls try to act like babies so their partner finds them cute! I just felt like he wasn't fully there and I wanted to ask him what was wrong. I wanted him to know everything would be okay, and I could kiss him and he could kiss me and it'd make everything that little bit better. But then I came back to reality. It would make everything about 10 times worse. Apart from my ultimate hopeless romantic antics in school, I am having some issues even outside. Yesterday, I was doing some school clothes shopping, and I saw the most beautiful boy who was every aspect of my type. He was walking behind me with his friend, and I was eavesdropping in their conversation with the illusion that I could not hear them because I had my earphones in. I heard him say "I just need to build up the guts to talk to her!" and his friend was like "Do it! Just do it now!" I could feel my body getting cold and the butterflies fluttering all over my stomach. Just as I was about to take my headphones out to welcome him and begin some sort of conversation, he walked to the group of girls in front of me and started his nervous chat with this girl he was talking to his friend about. FOOLISHLY I thought he was talking to me. This shame just led me into going to the nearest Caribbean restaurant so that I could drown my pathetic sorrows in food. I am over that now. It was very embarrassing, but I'm over it. I have suddenly built the theory in my mind that no boy would ever want me, and that having a boyfriend to hug and be romantic with, and to make me feel good about myself would never happen so I should get any sort of thought of romance and a relationship out of my dammed mind. Besides, it's not my priority at the moment, I need to get the best marks as I can in my end of year exams, so that I can get into the university I want to get into. I would like to go to Cardiff University and Study Law and Criminology. So if I want to get anywhere I should not focus on a boy, I should ensure I have a study plan and get where I want to be. Ahhh this is where I am now. I just hope somehow I will improve my social and romantic life after going to this Halloween party (This last sentence is a complete contradiction of my so called "study plan")


Cleopvtrv

xoxoxo

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